It’s been such a wonderful blessing to witness my body transform & shift within pregnancy.
I celebrate its inherent wisdom, beauty, grace & strength.
I look down at my growing belly every day in complete awe of what my body is capable of doing.
I’m proud of & excited to watch the growth that’s necessary for ushering a new soul into the world.
However, this wasn’t always the case…
I Know Better Now
One of the many reasons I never wanted to have kids was my fear around my body changing forever.
As a dancer & fitness professional most of my life, the thought of losing control over my weight & not being able to “get my body back” after pregnancy literally terrified me.
I’ve struggled with bulimia for 5 years. these limiting beliefs didn’t come as a big surprise anymore. Back then I was obsessed with controlling what I ate, terrified to gain or lose weight & doing my best to compete in the professional dance scene.
Breaking Through
I’m proud to share that after years of doing a ridiculous amount of inner healing work with yoga, meditation & sacred plant medicines like Ayahuasca, my old beliefs & self-destructive patterns no longer haunt me.
The head & heart space I experience today is WAY beyond anything I ever thought was possible.
My nonchalance around food is laughable. The unconditional love & deep respect I have for my body has increased 1000 fold. And pregnancy has only enhanced my love for this incredible vessel I call home.
Haters Gonna Hate
From time to time, I have noticed an increase in body-related comments over the last 7 months that I find somewhat triggering & do my best to not take personally.
Passive-aggressive comments like…
“You FINALLY look pregnant Amber. Your bump took a while to show.”
“You’re SO small. You don’t even look pregnant. Maybe you should eat a burger or 2.”
FYI – Skinny shaming is hurtful.
There are jealous, judgmental & uneducated people everywhere who are eager to project onto others.
In reality, we will always face external judgment, ladies. And although this may be true, we can protect ourselves by loving it. That’s all that matters in the long run.
Generally speaking, healing deep wounds, ending self-destructive patterns, and rewiring our minds with empowering beliefs IS possible. And, more importantly, doable for everyone.
Much Love,
Amber Sears
Epicself.com – Online Coaching & Training
Follow me on Instagram & Facebook!
