This is Me Transitioning to Maternity Leave

This is my last full week of work before transitioning into maternity leave. It’s bittersweet, to say the least.

I’m VERY excited about the deep exhale my body needs…

Sitting for more than an hour is extremely uncomfortable, heartburn comes in waves throughout the day no matter what I eat & full nights of sleep are non-existent these days.

I’m uncomfortable 90% of the time with the rapid expansion of my belly, but doing my best to remain positive & keep my eyes on the light at the end of the tunnel.

So my body is telling me to slow down, restore, nourish & sleep as much as possible.

Meanwhile, my mind wants to be busy creating, achieving & enjoying life to the max.

What I wouldn’t give to go dancing all night with my girlfriends, eat a delicious meal without heartburn, or complete a full day of coaching without needing a nap. Pregnancy requires tremendous sacrifice mentally, emotionally & physically. There is no way to avoid it. AND I know it will be worth every ounce of effort to hold Wilder in my arms for the first time.

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

I want to be completely transparent & real about this journey. YES, it has its glorious moments of awe, wonder & beauty where I feel like an empowered queen. AND there have been days, weeks & months where I feel like I’m suffering so much I just want it to be over as soon as possible.

There is a dark & light aspect to everything & pretending like everything is rainbows & unicorns doesn’t serve me or anyone else for that matter. It’s called spiritual bypassing & it only perpetuates more suffering.

We must feel all of our feelings. We must be willing to face the shadows aspects of self & life in order to truly heal, transform & awaken to the highest version of ourselves.

So while I practice my HypnoBabies audio tracks every day, repeat positive affirmations & take the best care of myself possible, I can’t avoid the feelings that arise.

So I let myself feel, cry and journal. Spending quality time with girlfriends & my husband helped tremendously. I don’t dwell in the emotions for long periods of time, but instead, allow myself to feel them fully.