Pregnancy Taught Me How To Surrender and Trust

Pregnancy has been a deeply humbling & ego-shattering experience of surrender & trust. There are days where I find it’s easy to ride the waves & others where I resist like hell.

This weekend I’ve had to make some hard decisions that have brought up all the feels.

After planning for months to launch my 6-week group business coaching accelerator, I’ve decided to pull the plug on the entire project in order to honor my body & the tail end of this process.

I’m already at my max workload with my current 1:1 clients but have been planning to launch this group option for months.

But, as I sat down to go over my plans this weekend a massive wave of resistance came up. My heart, intuition & body were screaming at me to stop, slow down & reconsider. While my mind had another agenda.

The inner battle between my heart & old mental programming was real for about 24 hrs.

The old programs in my mind were “should-ing” all over me.

THE SHOULDs THAT I SHOULDN’T… FOR NOW.

Doing this launch because you’ve already put so much time & energy into it.
Do it all. You are a superwoman. You can take on more.
Do this because you can’t let other people down.

This is all bullshit. And my heart knows it.

Meanwhile, deep down I already knew…

Growing a human is enough.

Coaching 11 amazing entrepreneurs is enough.

Slowing down & honoring my need for more space to BE pregnant is more than okay & is actually ideal for Wilders development.

Too much stress can cause me to go into labor early, which I obviously don’t want.

So as much as my old workaholic subconscious programs are putting up a good fight, I’m consciously choosing to say NO.

I’M DECLARING TO SAY NO TO:

Taking on more than I can handle. I will not over give to the point of self-sacrifice.
Going over my capacity. I will hold my boundaries. I will honor myself & Wilder through my 3rd trimester to the best of my ability.
Not resting. I will only work up to mid-Nov & then take the sacred space necessary to usher a new soul onto the planet with as much ease & grace as possible.

Did you experience similar ego death cycles during your pregnancy? I’d love to hear from you!